As I write this, I still have that glimmer of hope

Keywords: Playlist , Dear M , Already Gone , Kelly Clarkson

I still love you. I love you enough to not want to hurt you more than I have to. I’d rather have you think of me as a villain, as a dodged bullet. At this moment, I want you to hate me so much, because even though I know it’ll probably hurt you to not have me in your life anymore, thinking of me as evil will make it easier for you to move on. Hate comes easy. Hate is simple. You’ll hate me, you’ll learn your lessons, and you’ll get on with your life.

I want petty fights about mundane things and screaming at each other and slamming doors, brightening up your dark days and you love me all the same

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I chose this photo because she is very special to me. Her name is Bianca and she is my best friend. I took many pictures and i picked this because she’s been there for me through everything and by typing these i can show and appreciate her in so many ways.

A lot of the inner turmoil for me occurs when I think that what I want is going against what somebody else wants, or even what somebody else wants for me

Keywords: desire , podcasts , self-acceptance , selflove , women

This other thing i’ve been struggling with is sharing about my new project with my family and friends. I so want to tell them, so that I can celebrate with them and share my happiness and excitement with them, but I’m scared that their opinions or “feedback” or suggestions will get in the way of my creative process and doing what I really want to do — the thought in my head of “what will ______ say?” Stops me from living my authentic truth, unapologetically, because what if someone doesn’t love or accept me for it?