I was advised NOT to be in a romantic relationship for at LEAST a year into recovery

Keywords: recovery , anorexia , bible , catholic , christianity , faith , family , fitness , god , healing , jesus , life , love , prayer

I finally understand now, why. Because I had to have a total and complete control over taking care of myself, my needs, my recovery, my self worth. I needed to be airtight, steady, totally and completely bulletproof to any lingering “ED issues” before I could invite someone else into my heart and relinquish control over many of those emotional areas.

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Today I Lost A Friend (And I Caused It)

abuse, chronic illness, communication, control, emotional abuse, friendship, passive aggression, passive aggressive abuse, relationship, walk to wellness

Walk to Wellness

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Today I lost a friend, and I caused that loss.  I’m sad.  Actually, more devastated.  She has been my very close friend throughout this year at university, but prior to that we were friends for about 3 years.

We were going to do a thing together, one that had major financial implications for me, and a lot of time investment from her.  I decided it was not going to work for me, it was not something I wanted to do at all, I told her before she devoted herself to it.  We’d both put some time into it, her more than I, and she’d put some money into it, but neither of us would lose a huge amount.

I decided it wasn’t going to work for me for a number of reasons, some of which were friendship problems (I didn’t think our friendship would survive the business relationship), and the…

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